in retrospect

there are days like this when i wonder whether i've made the right decision in throwing away a stable job for a more "exciting" life....

...because there are days when things aren't exactly exciting and there are more uncertainties than expected

...the days when you wished you still had your old salary because that $2 the faulty vending machine swallowed means you'll have to scrimp on lunch the next day (and it didn't even dispense the coke that i was craving for!) 

...the days when familiarity, certainty, and the support of family and friends seem more important than "excitement" 

...the days when "the grass is always greener on the other side - the side that you are not on" rings so true, when you wished you had gritted your teeth and roughed it out back home

maybe these are the issues that I should have considered more carefully before making a decision, but these are the lessons that I have learnt and will learn, hopefully helping me to make better decisions in future. every decision, whether 'right' or 'wrong', is a lesson in itself. my prayer is that it is a decision made according to God's will and i'll learn the lessons He wants me to learn.